What was I thinking. Bleeding saggy left- Amycus?! Then Rosier? Honestly. It's as if I'm asking to be killed at this point. If I keep this up I'm never going to get this done. I still can't believe this is all happening. This...this is exactly what wasn't supposed to happen. If Voldemort he really is coming back...I can do something this time. If that locket of his is really as important as it seems...

I'll have to be careful about it though. I won't do anybody any good dead. Amycus is already suspicious. He knows I'm hiding something. If he thinks anything is wrong... No, Bellatrix and Lucius will be able to persuade him otherwise I hope They are family after all and family is what is important. That's why I'm in this bleeding mess at least. That is the last time I do anything for anyone else without thinking about it first. At least the Ministry saw it that way. I do wish that Father hadn't given them money...it would make me feel better and have one less item to defend my innocence about.

I wish there was a way to get Nymphadora to understand all this. That things aren't nearly as black and white as she seems to want them to be. That everything right now is grey. Grey has never been a good color on me. What I want to know is why she thought I would ever join the Order. Plus, even if I did join the Order, no one would trust me with anything. It would be worse than the fecking job I've got now. "Yes, Mr. Weatherby" "Right away, Mr. Weatherby" "What's that Mr. Weatherby?" "Avada Kedavra, Mr. Weatherby?" Maybe Amycus had a point about that at least...

And Meadowes. Who the bleeding hell does she think she is. She doesn't know anything about anything and off she goes spouting from the mouth as if she is Salazar's gift to wizarding kind. She's not anyone's gift to anything. If anything she's a disease spreading her... so bleeding frustrating! She's going to ki I can't stand her. I hope something blows up on her...foot at work. GIANTINKSPLOTCHESANDSTABMARKSOFDOOM I shouldn't let her get to me like this.


Please reassure me that it was just my imagination or was the entire bleeding Order in Hogsmeade on Saturday?


You're sure the wards are good, right? I mean, I'm not paranoid or anything. Just concerned a bit.

Going to Hogsmeade this weekend was refreshing. It was odd being back there after such a long time. I must make a habit of going more often.

Work's been murderous lately. Other countries seem to be in an uproar about the pardons being granted. I don't understand what their problem is with it though, it's not like we're pardoning and sending the Death Eaters there. They're just coming back home.